Did you ever love someone but you can’t really have ‘em?
You so adore them, you’d go to school just so you can see them?
You come to a stage where you don’t care if they don’t have six pack.
But what happens if they don’t like you back?

Well let me tell you this happened to me once.
This boy came first on my list of My Most Loved Ones.
It was kinda strange, I’d only talked to him twice.
Thanks mates, but a little advice would have been nice!

I didn’t know what to do, for God’s sake it was tough!
Let alone telling him how I felt, talking to him was major enough.
Although he didn’t notice me, I’m sure he knew my name.
What do I do? Writing him a letter would just be so lame?

So I was doing great keeping it to myself and close friends.
Until something bothered me for a couple of weekends.

I remember everytime I saw him I’d have a blackout.
And suddenly it became something the entire school was talking about.
Somehow everyone knew, and he must have known too.
Then how come he did nothing, didn’t he like me like I do?

It didn’t take too long for me to get the answer.
I have a memory of it that I wouldn’t want to treasure, ever.
After school at the gate I saw him with a girl.
That’s when my head started to twirl.

A lot of things have happened since then.
He graduated, never heard from him, never saw him again.
Then came the time when I had to move overseas.
Where I can find Whites, Niggers and of course Chinese.

Until in July 2007 when I went home for a holiday.
He texted me saying he wanted to see me on Friday.
I wasn’t that excited but I went anyway.
What’s the worst that could happen? Everything will be okay.

I guess there’s no need to tell you what we did.
All I can say is there was nothing that he hid.
I swear, my God, I swear it was just a 3-day thing.
And please please please just make it stop haunting.

You’ve no idea how much I wanna undo it.
But I can’t turn back time, Goddammit!
I just wish he didn’t take anything serious.
But he is, and it’s making me furious!!

~tata