Cuma mau bilang beberapa hal…

1. Selamat buat temen" yang tanggal 15 Juni kemarin mendapat kabar terbaik selama masa mereka di SMA. Selamat kalian ngga harus ikutan kejar paket. Selamat juga buat yang udah keterima di Universitas favorit anda, walopun bukan favorit juga tetep selamat lah. MAkan"!

2. Saya minta doanya karena ngga seperti kalian, saya masih harus deg"an sampe tanggal 14 Agustus besok. Doain gini: Semoga doanya Tata dikabulkan. AMin.

3. I’m a bad person. I’m a reeeeal bad person. I’m doing a really bad thing. It’s putting me in a frighteningly-complicated situation. And it’s about time until that situation is going to realize that I’m in it. I’ts about time until I get told "Omg, Tata, you’re a betrayer! We hate you! You suck!" and everyone’s going to keep distance (both literally and not literally) from me. Why are you even still reading my blogs? I’m a bad person.

4. Udah nonton Kungfu Panda? Bagus!

      Udah gitu aja. Kalo ada yang mau komen, silakan pilih topik yang mau anda komentarin. Ntah itu poin 1, 2, 3 atau 4. Lebih dari satu poin juga boleh. Yang sama sekali ngga nyambung dengan topik" di atas juga ngga papa. Your choice.

~tata

      Dulu waktu gw umur sekitar 16, gw pernah main di sebuah film. Film nya bukan film kelas dunia. Distribusi nya pun kecil-kecilan; bahkan kenyataannya, film itu cuma diputer di kepala gw ajah. Film gw punya sebuah soundtrack. Judulnya Fix You, yang nyanyi ngga tau siapa, kayanya sih Coldplay, lupa. Tapi gw ngga punya script atau apa, semuanya gw improvisasi sebaik mungkin.

      Ngga, film ini bukan film cinta sampah kaya sinetron2 yang disiarkan di Indonesia.. Lebih kaya..apa yah,, pengalaman kah? Ceritanya pun ngga cliche. Percaya deh, gw sebagai produser, pemain, plus direktor nya aja ngga nyangka ending nya bakal kaya gini. Film gw sebenernya belom selese, tapi gw putuskan buat berhenti memproduksi sekitar…4 bulan yang lalu. Soalnya klo diterusin nanti jadi kaya sinetron Tersanjung. Sampe ada 1024 seri.

      Besok2 klo film gw udah bisa ditransfer dari kepala gw ke layar TV, ato mungkin layar lebar, who knows,, ntar gw kasih tau yah..

      Ow and by the way, that song is fuckin great. Jadi pengen dengerin, ke youtube ah… Trus mungkin nanti mau download juga ehehe…

~tata

      Waa… Sekarang tanggal 11 Januari yah? Hmhmhm…

      Gigi banget…

      Ahaha ngga penting…

~tata
 

Did you ever love someone but you can’t really have ‘em?
You so adore them, you’d go to school just so you can see them?
You come to a stage where you don’t care if they don’t have six pack.
But what happens if they don’t like you back?

Well let me tell you this happened to me once.
This boy came first on my list of My Most Loved Ones.
It was kinda strange, I’d only talked to him twice.
Thanks mates, but a little advice would have been nice!

I didn’t know what to do, for God’s sake it was tough!
Let alone telling him how I felt, talking to him was major enough.
Although he didn’t notice me, I’m sure he knew my name.
What do I do? Writing him a letter would just be so lame?

So I was doing great keeping it to myself and close friends.
Until something bothered me for a couple of weekends.

I remember everytime I saw him I’d have a blackout.
And suddenly it became something the entire school was talking about.
Somehow everyone knew, and he must have known too.
Then how come he did nothing, didn’t he like me like I do?

It didn’t take too long for me to get the answer.
I have a memory of it that I wouldn’t want to treasure, ever.
After school at the gate I saw him with a girl.
That’s when my head started to twirl.

A lot of things have happened since then.
He graduated, never heard from him, never saw him again.
Then came the time when I had to move overseas.
Where I can find Whites, Niggers and of course Chinese.

Until in July 2007 when I went home for a holiday.
He texted me saying he wanted to see me on Friday.
I wasn’t that excited but I went anyway.
What’s the worst that could happen? Everything will be okay.

I guess there’s no need to tell you what we did.
All I can say is there was nothing that he hid.
I swear, my God, I swear it was just a 3-day thing.
And please please please just make it stop haunting.

You’ve no idea how much I wanna undo it.
But I can’t turn back time, Goddammit!
I just wish he didn’t take anything serious.
But he is, and it’s making me furious!!

~tata